From the recording Hold On... Life is Calling
IT’S WHAT I HAVE TO DO, Track #12 on The Livesays' album "Hold On... Life is Calling" • Billy Livesay-Lead vocals/Guitars • Victor "Cuqui" Berrios-Hammond Organ/Vocals • Jorge Laplume-Bass • Eddie Zyne-Drums/Percussion • Special guests: Luke Sipka-piano
Lyrics
It's What I Have To Do
[William Livesay ©2016]
• In Memory of Lila Ziegler •
I'm walking down the hall passed the pictures on the walls
Your blue eyes staring back at me
My grief is hard to take, a little more than I can fake
So I cry, cry without reprieve
Then I kick back and I take a breath
Exhale and lose myself
In all of the memory of you
And I smile when I think of you
Fishing from the dock in the morning dew
Drinking bloody Marys in the afternoon
Playing cards with a friend or two
It's what I have to do so I won't cry
Your scent is everywhere on the pillows and the chairs
Your lipstick on the edges of a glass
Romance novel on the bedside table, Kitty wells in the CD player
It's hard to rap my head around what's past
So I kick back and I take a breath
Exhale and lose myself
In all the memory of you
And I smile when I think of you
Fishing from the dock in the morning dew
Drinking bloody Marys in the afternoon
Playing cards with a friend or two
It's what I have to do so I won't cry
I batten down the hatches
Trying to hold back the tears
So my crying won’t reveal my pain
But it's hard to conceal when overwhelmed by how ya feel
The flood gates open wide
When the memories collide
I remember you sitting at the kitchen counter
Talking to your sister for about an hour
Catching up with jokes and such
Betting teams on football Sunday
Settling up on Monday
I miss your calling me so much
So I kick back and I take a breath
Exhale and lose myself
In all the memory of you
And I smile when I think of you
Fishing at the dock in the morning dew
Breaking bread with a friend or two
I’ll raise a glass and drink to you
It's what I have to do
It's what I have to do
It's what I have to do … so I won't cry